Three Kids in a Trench Coat

Harley, our resident 5-year old lil’ cheeky monkey, has been around a lot lately. Can you tell from the title? ^^

We apparently have two chunky looking posts on resources & Night in the Woods in progress, but f-that rn, we’re feeling identity-spicy – so let’s talk about that, rather than indulging our inclination to feel like we constantly have to explain ourselves (it’s a trauma response, what can I say? – C)

Getting them giggles

Is there a word or phrase for when members of a system start goofing off together & making each other laugh? We’ve heard other systems mention it, and it is most definitely A Thing xD

System giggles feels like a good name for what was happening earlier – I was ready to go out – Jesse was driving, so deep red baseball cap, aviators, jacket – but Harley was co-piloting, and found looking like Jesse hilarious – so kept jumping in front of the mirror & giggling xD

Jesse tells a lot of jokes & teases the others. Ellie love making weird faces, dancing, & playing with our varying senses of where we are in our body (as does J-man). So the three of us today have been having a grand old time ^^

System giggles.

If we ever decide on a “system name”, maybe we should be the Giggles System 😀

Why cover up the colours stuck inside our head?

We went for a walk earlier, switching between Jesse & Ellie’s playlists – think Linkin Park, Fallout Boy, Metallica, Maiden (J-man), and Rihanna, Britney, and HUNTR/X (a few of Ellie’s favs).

Golden from K-Pop Demon Hunters was playing, and a weird thing happened. The line, “Waited so long to break these walls down / To wake up, and feel like me” often brings up the very familiar feeling of something missing – memories, time, sense of direction & purpose, feeling safe… feeling anything other than fear, really. Y’know, the finer things.

But today, Ellie was dancing as we walked, J-man & Harley chilling alongside, sun shining, and Ellie was thinking about how, “Eh, why be sad about it – it’s not like I want to be some one-and-only, I like this“. J-man & Harley felt the same. And we felt good. Hopeful. Relaxed. Joyful.

Who is Riley? No fucking idea, but at least my inner fam know who they are ^^

We’re doing ok trying, screwing up, learning, growing as a family.

I’m ok with that ❤

Until next time, take care of yourself, kiddos

Riley & fam